what's in my mind?

There are a lot actually. Not heavy stuffs but every little tiny bit of things that make me smile. Or confused.
1. Adorable puppies in the form of woman's bestfriend, shoes!

I want this so damn bad... The puppies prints on it drives me crazy. It seems like these bad boys barking, asking me to wear them. But I just bought another shoes online. I can't spend all of my money in a sec. I guess you boys have to wait for me. If I do well in my final exam, I'll definitely have you boys. As a reward for myself. Just wait, mommy gonna study hard for you.

2. The best medical drama in the whole word, and what made it more awesome is the main character had an autistic disease

The drama is about a genius doctor wanna-be trying to be accepted as a resident in the best hospital in the country. He has a good spacial capability and precise diagnose. Unfortunately he has Savant Syndrome. People cannot accept him. He was rejected by society. This is a drama proving the qualification to be a good doctor is not about awesome medical skill, high success rate in operating patient, or great social skill. It's about trying your best to help others.

The story is nice. Joo Won oppa is charming. Fell for him,even though he was behaving like a 7 years old in this drama. 

3. My sad yet pitiful motivation

After I watched Good Doctor, I rethink my motivation why I want to be a doctor. The main reason is because my dad promised that he will buy me a car if I get accepted in medical university. The other reason is just to make my parents proud and my family happy. I wonder why becoming a doctor is such a big deal. I guess it's no longer about helping others, but a guarantee to live all fulfilled. 

I want to help others, but do I have to be a doctor? I can't be a surgeon or anything that forced me to work with scapel, just an ordinary doctor. I won't save people's life. 

What if, just what if I can do more for others if I am not becoming a doctor? 

No matter how many times I asked myself, I don't have the courage to answer it myself.