Sophie Kinsella and A SPOILER ALERT (should have written this in most of my posts...)

I am stressed out. The pressure is real. The absurd expenses caused me guilt. Its not that I am being ungrateful, its just a wild thought. Am I making the right choice? Of course I am. I just wondering what IF I am not. Life is full of tricks on its sleeves, all I can do is hoping I manage it well. I am putting my life at stake for this, I don’t have any back up plan. So if any of these are fraud then I am screwed. Why am I thinking like that, I guess at times like these the pessimistic side of me is taking control. Filling my heart with a pang of guilt and whispering it won't work out.  But it will, I am sure it will. I don’t know how it will turn out but everything gonna be worth it. Fingercrossed.

Anyway… Let's stop talking about how boring my life is and talk about the fun stuffs. Things that keep my mind off the university orientation. Funny and lovely stuffs like Sophie Kinsella’s books. I’ve only read 2 of them, but both of them are really funny and got everything that I want in a novel.

1.   I’ve Got Your Number

I got this book at the airport. That time I don’t know who Sophie Kinsella is. All I want is a romantic and funny novel, and this novel’s summary gave all that I wanted in a novel. An accident. One that happened out of the quirkiness or clumsiness of the main character. Here we got Poppy Wyatt. An extraordinary girl who works as an physiotherapist. She is on top of the world after her boyfriend propose her with a precious family ring. Until she lost it in a hotel. She got crazy wild when she found out that the ring is nowhere to be found. At the most urgent moment in her life, someone stole her phone. Poppy needs a phone! What if someone calls her that the ring is found and she wouldn’t know. At the most erratic moment she found a phone in the trash bin. Finders keepers right? But unfortunately it belongs to Sam Roxton. A cold and serious bussinessman. Well, it used to belong to his Personal Assistant. Both of them needs the phone and Sophie got entangled in Sam’s life and so does Sam.  Sophie had to forward all Sam’s emails and she can’t help her self to look at every single email. She started to picture Sam’s life and his relationship with his coworkers, family, and fiancee. If Poppy may say, a lunatic fiancee. Poppy always wondering why Sam is engaged with that woman. But that is none of her bussiness. But Poppy could make some little changes in Sam’s life. Sam’s always been too strict with all the invitations he got in his emails. Maybe Poppy could say yes to the Guatemala’s trips on behalf of the Sam’s name. Or saying birthday to Lindsey, his coworker. Or saying that everyone at work should come up with some ideas to brighten the company…. Before Poppy can realize it she has been sending A LOT of emails under Sam’s name. She thought she did good… She meant to do him a favor… But not everyone taking it well. Especially Sam. Poppy felt super guilty and Sam demanded his phone back. Few days passed, Poppy went to his company to return his phone. It seems that her little initiatives turned out to not be so bad. Not everything turned out well, but it does gave Sam some advantages.  

Poppy got a perfect fiance and a perfect life. But after she met Sam, she feels… incomplete. She points out Sam flaws, but so does Sam. Sam said that Poppy always felt inferior with the Tavishes (her fiance’s family). She doesn’t! Doesn’t she?

Once again Poppy entangled in Sam’s life. Sir Nicholas Murray, a CEO and a person that Sam’s admire, got caught up in a corruption scandal. Which wasn’t true. Somehow it’s up to Poppy to save Sir Nicholas. Poppy only have few days behind before her marriage. Why she said yes to this?

Together, Poppy and Sam searching for evidence. While everyone at company lost hope and believing Sir Nicholas’s scandal. When the statement is out Poppy met Sam in discreet. Out in the woods. They were texting, being honest one another. Poppy felt a warm feeling in her heart, which is wrong,  but again she is afraid to let this moment go. That is when Sam’s arms wrapped her body. They stayed there for 5, no 10 minutes then pretend that nothing happened.

Poppy had a perfect fiance, she has the perfect life waits for her after the marriage. But all of that crumbles when she found out that Magnus (her fiance) is cheating with his wedding planner, Lucinda. She is hurt and call off her wedding. She said that to Sam, but he only said sorry. She emailed him with a friendly tone, but he sent back a cold brushed off email. One that says nice words but it was sent to all of people we don’t want to talk with. That’s why she said yes when Magnus beg her to keep marrying him.

Poppy is at the church and about to say her vow. Magnus looked like he was going to end his life, he is definitely only want to get through with it. The priest started by saying “Wilt thou..” but Magnus answered by saying “I do”. Poppy lost her temper because Magnus not taking this seriously ( he obviously only watch many stupid American wedding in movies) and she realized that it is not meant to be. When she about to leave the church a woman stopped her. Saying that she have been emailed by some guy to stop this wedding. So does the other guests. EVERYONE in the church got the email.

“Stop. Stop her. Hold it off. Delay it. She’s doing the wrong thing…”

“Lover? I don’t know. I don’t know if she loves me… I don’t know if I love her.”

“All I can say she’s the one I think about.”

“All the time. She’s the voice I want to hear. She’s the face I hope to see.”

There he is. Sam Roxton. Standing in front of the church asking Poppy for a coffee. Poppy said yes, and she is ready to begin a lovely and honest relationship.

What I love is, Sam Roxton is not a perfect guy. He is oblivious and cold. But then so does Poppy. She is really careless and I think she needs to get hit just once. Sophie Kinsella put this two opposite characters into one story, and they complete each other. Poppy may have the perfect man beside her. But perfect for other may not perfect for her. Poppy weird endeavour gave colour in Sam’s life. They are perfect for each other eventhough they don’t seem like it. Eventhough they were put into the stickiest situation ever. Sophie Kinsella manage to give a beautiful twist with a strong comedy in it. A perfect read for you who looking for a relaxed mind in a holiday.

The next book I read is Can You Keep A Secret? But I’ll recap it tomorrow. Ciao!

I said I am fine, and I hope at least 1% of that sentence is true.

I look down at the floor, feeling all depresed. Lost confidence in myself. I am wondering what should I do with myself. Spelling the word optimistic but I end up with a dead end. Finding myself as a hopeless human being only made me more regretful. Why am I living like this? Why my smile only lasts for a few secs? Why I am really bad at pretending? At times like these what should I do? Should I run and escape? Or face it and waste my energy with tears?

The concern is real. What is at stake is my future. What is left to blame is my life. I have faith. I believe in God and His beautiful plans. I gave him all my worries.

But in the end, I can't help but feel concerned.

Wandering around and asking what is wrong.
The wind blows as it should. Leaves wither at the time it should dies. This earth rotates, revolving around sun and made all the seasons happened as usual. Rain falls but then sun dries it up. Nothing change in this world. People have worries but they overcame it. I have my worries, but what sickening about me is the fact that I am pessimistic. The fact that people I care the most lose their faith in me. The fact that I am wavering as well.

I am not ready to accept the fact that I am a failure.
I never regret that I have a big dream. I won't change it and I hope this dream could get me on going. But I am scared the world gonna be as harsh as it should. Can I handle the pressure of life? Can I keep on living even though it is beyond my limit?

I tried to find answers. But those answers lie in my willingness to live. My durability. The time before I break down. The time that I breath. There my answer lies. In my hardwork and tears.

The more and more I stuck in this depression, it is harder to fake a smile. To laugh and be nice. More and more questions popped in my head. Why I have to be the one to suffer like this? Why I can't break down and cry?

I hate myself more as the time goes. I am afraid that I will lose myself if I face the cold blooded fact. I am afraid that I will be someone that I am not. I hope everything goes well so I can put on some sincerity in my smile.

Dear God, give me strength. I know nothing is impossible when I am with you. In my hard times I can count on you. Please God, don't let me lose myself. Let me be the one who still be able to spread your name in my difficulities.

Jesus Christ, the one who is able to do it all. My strength, My hope. The one my faith lies in. Give me a way to be a doctor. One you can use to be a blessing for others. Only in your name I believe in. Amen.

My Sassy Girl

Adorbs!

A romantic comedy made so good, I have to make a post about it. Released in 2001, this movie has become the starting point of hallyu wave. This movie is flawless. The stories, actors, songs, and the comedy came together so well it ended up becoming one of the movies we can't forget for a lifetime.
Everything about this movie is memorable, even after 13 years people still talking about it. Starred by popular actor, Cha Tae Hyun (I can't help it but love all of his movies) and Jeon Ji Hyun (biggest drama in 2014, My Love From Another Star).

It started with their weird meeting at a train. The Girl, played by Jeon Ji Hyun, got drunk and barf on top of an old man's head. Before she passed out she called Gyun Woo (Cha Tae Hyun) as her boyfriend. He was forced to take responsibility of the drunken girl. Gyun Woo took her to a motel. Tomato potato, there was a big misunderstanding and Gyun Woo was taken into a jail.

Gyun Woo's bad luck didn't end just like that. The girl asked to meet up and Gyun Woo explained that it's all just a big misunderstanding. He should say it's not entirely his fault but who can get angry at this face.

The Girl

This girl became a major part of Gyun Woo's life. She took him into her ride of craziness. Gyun Woo can't say no because this girl is quiet violent. I can't count how many times Gyun Woo got slapped in this movie... They have been into many mess together. One that is most unexpected when they sneaked into an amusement park at midnight (Gyun Woo planned a birthday surprise for The Girl) and met a runaway soldier. They were being held as hostages and even receiving death threats. Both of them being freed safely but Gyun Woo got slapped because he said to kept the girl as hostage instead of him. His birthday surprise for the girl failed completely.

Gyun Woo's and the girl's relationship never made clear. He can't say that they are dating, but if he said they were just friends he got slapped.... Damn woman...

One day the girl waited for Gyun Woo at his university. All of his friends cheering him for having an incredibly beautiful girlfriend. Gyun Woo was in a good mood. But not for long.... The girl asked him to exchange shoes with her. She was wearing heels! He couldn't say no and ended up chasing her in heels...

Her parents didn't give their blessing because Gyun Woo had no plan for future. Since then their relationship never been the same. The girl went to a blind date and asked Gyun Woo to come. He didn't want to because he is also in a date with another girl. But when he found out that his date actually had penis.... He went to the girl's blind date. When the girl went to the bathroom, he told the girl's date 10 rules to date her. The girl's date told her everything that Gyun Woo said. When hearing these 10 rules the girl came into a realization that Gyun Woo cared about her more than she knew. He said to never let her drink more than three glasses, always order coffee, being an expert at kendo, exchanged shoes with her when her feet hurt and many more. She chased him (I cried A LOT at this part). They kept on missing each other but they meet up again by fate. He hugged her but then he got slapped instead.

They went to a mountain and the girl asked Gyun Woo to go to the hill accross them, just out of curiosity. When Gyun Woo was afar she said "I'm sorry. But this feeling is too strong. I'm sorry Gyun Woo" The girl can't get over her previous boyfriend and she didn't want to be with Gyun Woo while she is still in love with her ex. The went to a tree on top of a hill and buried a time capsule. They made a promise to meet again after 2 years under the tree.

Gyun Woo went all by himself...

In the two years period Gyun Woo changed himself into a better person. He learned how to swim, play tennis and do kendo. He wrote his stories with the girl on blog and ended up being filmed. All he did were for the girl. He came back 2 years later, but she didn't. He open up the time capsule and finally knew the truth about the girl's ex. He died. The day she met Gyun Woo is one year after the girl's ex death. The reason she messed around Gyun Woo is to find her ex in him. She made Gyun Woo did all the things her ex did to her. But more and more she spent time with Gyun Woo, she liked him more and felt like she cheated on her ex. That's why she asked for two years. It's to get over her dead boyfriend.

The girl came back after three years. She has completely moved on but she felt it's too late to get back together with Gyun Woo again. She met an old man that explained to her that a year back the tree was struck by a lightning and split into two. There was a man who plant the exact same tree just because he didn't want a particular girl to be sad. The girl cried and tried to reach out for Gyun Woo but she failed.

Years later the girl met with her dead boyfriend's mother. She wanted the girl to meet his nephew and hoping the two can date. Surprisingly the mother's nephew is Gyun Woo. Both of them smiled at each other. The two of them really can't escape the fate. The girl said "I already met the man of my future"


That is all!!! The recap of My Sassy Girl. This movie is a must watch for all the reason we are living. This movie combined comedy, romance, and tragedy in the most amazing way. One of the best romantic comedy in the world. This movie took the world by storm and has American and Japan remake. Both of the actors became top stars thanks to this movie. A wonderful watch made to make you smile. And giggles. And cry. And be happy. Be happy everyone!!!

Have a nice day