just like a romantic scene in a movie

 It was under the rain. 6 p.m.
We were sitting on a bench, not knowing each other names.
Yet we just sit there awkwardly.
Waiting for our cup of noodles. Silently.
Then you started the conversation. We were chatting with a lot of pauses. Tried to search for a topic.
But it was nice.
Considering you're a total stranger to me.
I guess there is one thing I really want to say, but I can't.

"Nice to meet you"

I am scared

Why I have to be judged by everything I say? Why can't I say my opinion honestly? Why I have to live under the pressure. Why can't I be myself? Why?
People said to wait. But it's been too long and i don't know when it will end. I hate getting blamed all the time. I'm tired. I hate being screamed at. I hate being mocked at. Especially from someone you cared the most.
I can't lie. But why can't I be honest either?

Please. I beg you from the bottom of my heart. Please stop.

He Was Cool

It's been a long time since I wrote a post about entertainment. Well this blog is about entertaining but I keep telling story about myself. Sorry -_-
Anyway.... I just finished another korean book titled He Was Cool. The author is Guiyeoni.

It's a story that begun from an accidental kiss. The guy named Ji Eun Seong. And the girl named Han Ye Won. Ye Won foolishly jumped from her school's gate and fall on Eun Seong. They kissed. Eun Seong, a guy who hate skinships forced Ye Won to be his girlfriend. Because he can't share a kiss with a total stranger.
Actually they met before in Damoyim. I don't really get it but it's a korean social network. They mocked each other school. One thing that Ye Won didn't know, Eun Song is a bad boy. We can call him a high school gangster. Only with a good looking face. He was a part of Big 4. A gang consisted of 4  good looking men who love to fight.

Eun Song hated Ye Won instantly and chased her everywhere. That was why they end up with an accidental kiss.

Eun Song wasn't entirely a bad boy. He protected Ye Won many times. One thing that she couldn't understand, is why Eun Song didn't like being touched.

One day, Ye Won went out with her childhood friend from America, Jong Min. She didn't fulfill her promise to meet Eun Seong that day. Sadly, Eun Seong prepared a surprise for her and it was a day before his birthday. So sad T^T

Eun Song was really angry and left Ye Won. After many scenes, including Eun Song bitchy ex and a lot of fight, they finally made up and became a cute couple ^^

This is the cover ^^ I can't find a better  image  T_T

Movie made from this story

d.... Manhwa

The story was a big hit. And I'm waiting for the second part of He Was Cool. I don't know the story about the second book but it's about Eun Seong jealousy. Ye Won, that stupid girl how come she liked by two handsome men -_-

Anyway.... I have to warn you. It's not a good-high quality tipe of book. The sentences are short, the story is moving too fast, and there are A LOT of emoticons.

It's cute and simple. I don't love it, but i like it ^^

Don't lose!

Am I doing the right thing tonight? What are you trying to do? Is it wrong to do this? What is your intention?

Many questions popped in my head. Even though I'm the one who is asking, I'm also the one who is afraid to answer. Afraid to accept reality.

I always said to my self,

Don't fall. Just remind your self everytime you're about to fall. You're about to fall from a cliff, and its not pretty down there. I know, falling freely seems nice, but you will not like what happen in the end. Don't fall from the cliff twice. Just remember how much it hurts when you hit the ground

Since I made a promise to myself, I'm 100% percent sure that i will not be the one who is falling twice like an idiot.
I'll treat it like a game. Between you and me. Can we play it till the end, fair and square? Or maybe we will cheat to win? Maybe we will end it with a tie, pretend like nothing happened?

Just wait. I won't fall and I will win.

I won't lose.

I WANT TO CHANGE

menyedihkannya nilai ulanganku akhir2 ini bikin aku frustasi. sungguh. dan puncaknya adalah hari ini, ulangan pak sus model matematika aku nggak bisa. rasanya kagol, sebel, campur aduk.
mulai sekarang aku mau berubah. Aku nggak akan nyepelein pelajaran guru lagi. Selama ini aku mikir kalo belajar sendiri atau les aku bisa kok. Tapi sekarang nggak lagi. Orang malas nggak akan dapet nilai yang bagus vega. Nggak akan.

Hari ini, mas andi gayanya kayak mario teguh. hahahahaha. tapi terharu juga ada orang yang peduli sama keterpurukan nilaiku ini.

Mulai sekarang nggak ada lagi vega yang tidur pas pelajaran fisika, nggak ada lagi vega yang nggak punya catatan dan soal. Nggak ada lagi vega yang nggak tau jadwal dan besok ulangan apa. nggak ada lagi vega yang telatan dan duduk di pojok belakang kiri kelas. nggak ada lagi vega yang ngeprint spr atau proposal pagi2. Nggak ada lagi vega yang pah poh soal pelajaran. Nggak akan kena semprot pak mario lagi gara2 telat. Nggak akan ada lagi.

Aku bakal berubah dan aku bakal dapet undangan buat masuk ke

in the name of Jesus

KEDOKTERAN UGM!!!

amin :) 

Let's end this post with my favorite song by Katy Perry! 

Where am I?

I've been living in the intersection now. I can't be myself with both party. Every time I looked at them, I felt guilty. Why I had to do this? Can't we just have fun with everyone no matter what? The answer is NO. This is reality. You can't get everything you want.
But why everything have to be so complicated? To be honest I'm feeling lonely now. If you are not honest, you hide your own feelings, how could you be open to someone else? People said to remain silent and stay away from problem. But I hate this situation. I know I have to find a safe spot. Yet I felt like my laughter, my smile, and my jokes, all of them were fake. As fake as my entity.
Would you stay in grey or choose?

One more thing to say:

SORRY