Nothing Lasts

Nothing lasts forever. Things we like today, we may hate it tomorrow. Things we crave yesterday, we may sick of it today. We try to keep up with the world, but we always fall behind. Chasing for something we don't even know the purposes. We want to be known. To exist.

But why we work our ass off for something temporarily? Why we try our best to satisfy other people? Why other's judgement define our attitude? I always wondering why, but that is how society works. I find it fake and hideous. You want to be liked, you want to gain respect, but have you being yourself?

I hate people who is judgemental and cocky. I hate people who act mean and think that it is fine. But most of the time they define how others should act. They think everything that came out from their mouth is the truth and everyone else should think the same. I hate this kind of system but once again, this is how the the society works. The one who have say in everything, rules.

Why can't we live in a world where people are not judgemental. Where everyone can laugh, can smile, give opinions, as they like. I envy those hippies back in the 60s. They live as they like. They didnt care about how rotten the world is. They just... living. Finding peace for all the human being in the world. They set aside their ego, and tried to put on smile every single second. Sometimes I listened to John Lennon's Imagine, and hoping the lyrics come to life.

I don't want to live like hippies, but when I get tired and stressed out, I closed my eyes. Seeing my self under thousand of lights, listening to loud music. Screaming for my favorite band. Never thinking about tomorrow. Living in a van. Going from place to place. Meeting new people. Staying up all night and going crazy. Doing all the fun stuff. Mocking the government. Bath when I feel like. Eat when I felt hungry. And never giving myself any boundaries. Break the rules. Hated by the officers. Drink when I am stressed out. Using some weeds when I want some. The only thing that is allowed in my life is my happiness. Not others, but mine. Only mine.

Then I open my eyes and realized that I will not forgive myself if I do those things. I am a person who is lack of self control, and I can see my self overdose if I am living that kind of life.

I am tired with people. Yet I have to adjust with this society, and try to survive. Hoping for better tomorrow. Being positive. Not hearing unnecessary things from unnecessary people. Put on a smile and hoping from your deepest heart, the world gonna smile with you. Not everyday is a good day. But there is always tomorrow. You can always have a chance to fix what you did wrong and improve yourself.

The most important thing is, please don't make others judgement define yourself. Be you. Life is short. Dont waste it for others.